Hope

So my problem is now that I have no hope. I just realized that's what's been wrong these past few months. No job, and no pretensions for getting one. I've gained a lot of weight which I'm slowly getting used to since I can't seem to get myself to exercise. I have a lot of headaches and I'm smoking a lot which is not where I want to be. I can't sit still long enough to read or watch movies or TV.

Recently (within the past few days) I started working on my second book again. Trying to rewrite the ending because I wasn't happy with the old one. But I've got tendinitis in my right elbow so I can only write about two pages at a time. At least I'm writing.

I'd like to work on my sculpture since I seemed to have a knack for that, but again, the elbow.

Anyone else lost hope and actually found it again? I feel so lost and alone, and this blog is the only way I can work it out. Because I can't afford a therapist, lol. It all looks down from here.

This is one of the sculptures I did years ago. I don't know what has become of it but I'm sure I'll find it if we ever move! We're still trying to sell the house and move into a smaller place, but times are tough.  I'm on day 26 of my latest quit (smoking) and I'm going strong this time! Fewer cravings and urges, so maybe this one will stick!  My writing has dwindled to nothing as I attempt to quit smoking, or at least that's what I'm blaming it on. Hopefully I'll get inspired and will sit down and "just write" as we're instructed to by NANOWRIMO. So all that in one short paragraph. I hope all my readers are happy and healthy and I'll post again sooner rather than later, I promise!!

Still not smoking, woo hoo!

Today is day 9! The cravings are still there, but I'm fighting them as hard as I can. Wow, who would have thought it would be so hard! Nicotine is a drug, so it is an addiction, not a habit as so many people think. We're addicts, we smokers (not me anymore;-) and we need support and help, not criticism and looks of disgust. I was always embarrassed to have that cigarette in public, but at the same time needed to fix that craving.

It's going to be about 80* again today. Loving this spring, except that everything in my kitchen is covered in yellow pollen. Ugh! What a mess! The pool had a ring of yellow around the edge as well. Not good for house showings, but so far we don't have any for this weekend (house showings). I'm hoping we sell soon. I can't wait!

Okay, that's enough of that. Thanks for listening and for reading my post. Don't forget, if you have't tried IN YOUR EYES you can get the ebook at Amazon for just 2.99! Less than a pack of cigarettes or a gallon of gas! LOL. Okay, not funny. Here's the link: http://www.amazon.com/Your-Eyes-Angela-Scannell/dp/1456473018

Day 5 Not Smoking

Well, I've made it this far. After 3 days all of the nicotine is out of your system, so I'm clean! Feels pretty good, and I've made some funny friends on the chats at Quitnet. Those folks are great. Start out all down and out, and they cheer me right up!

I've decided to ditch my whole 3rd book and start over. It's all about process anyway, right? And learning. And practice. So I've learned and practiced on my 3rd book, and now I'm going to start again and get it better this time (I won't say I'll get it right, that's just too much pressure).

So I'd love to hear some comments from folks who have read IN YOUR EYES. Where are you? I know you're out there! Love y'all!

Quitting smoking sucks

So I've been trying to quit smoking for over a year now, and it isn't getting any easier. I tried to go with the patch but it didn't really help, and now I'm smoking a couple of cigs a day just to make it through. This is just wrong. It shouldn't be this hard, but it is! I'm trying so hard, and I'm going to give a few online help sites a chance to help me with this because apparently it's close to impossible to quit alone. I need some buddies.

My writing has come to a standstill as I consider rewriting my whole third novel. It isn't finished and it's getting boring, which is not what readers want, so here I go cutting it apart and starting over. What a task! My first two books went pretty smoothly, but this third one is really tough. I can't quit, or I won't be a writer anymore. I've been hearing from lots of people that the one mistake writers make is that they give up when they need to keep writing. So I need to get back on that horse.

My house is for sale and has been for quite a while. The whole buyers market thing. We have a beautiful house with an in ground freshwater pool. Who could resist that? But we've had lots of lookers but no buyers. Any day now though, I'm sure. Because it is a wonderful house and I hate to leave it, but we have to move! Send positive vibes my way if you can spare them!

Hey y'all! I've quit smoking, 8 days into the quit, and it's killing me!!! I'm having a very hard time writing because I used to use those quiet smoking times as time to think through the next scene of my book. Now I'm at a loss. But I smell much better ;-) And my lungs are happier, I'm sure.

So I'm working on the third book in the series, and it's from another person's point of view. It is a new story but takes place in Cass and Renna's world. The main character is very different from Cass or Renna, and she's a lot of fun to write. I just need a cig now and then, lol. I hope you've enjoyed IN YOUR EYES.  If you haven't read it yet...
Don't forget there's still a contest running for a free signed copy of IN YOUR EYES! Just go to Author Interview and leave a comment. Random comment will win the free copy!

Okay, back to the story. I hope to have the sequel to IN YOUR EYES out in the next month or so, though it depends on the editing process. Sometimes it takes a lot longer than you expect it to, but I'm hopeful!  Thank you readers!!

In Your Eyes Contest

Funny how my book is selling but I can't seem to give it away! There's still a contest running for a free signed copy of IN YOUR EYES! Just go to Author Interview and leave a comment. Random comment will win the free copy!

The sequel to IN YOUR EYES is on it's way, too! Just in the last bits of editing and I'll get it published! Woohoo!

Speaking of woohoo, did you catch that Duke/UNC game last night? Wow, what an eye-popper! I turned it off because it was too stressful to watch. Didn't want to see Duke lose badly to their rival, but all came out well. Amazing Austin Rivers! Apparently there was bench burning at Duke. I used to work there and used to be part of the "A-Team" which was administrators hanging around the fire making sure everyone stayed safe. Guess they weren't ready for this one!

Anyway, I'm off to do some valentine shopping today for my love of 20 years! We've been through so much together, I need to find something more special to give her -- do you think some new Levi's 501's is too unromantic? LOL. That's what she needs/wants. I got a gorgeous ring for our anniversary so I won't be expecting anything from her, except maybe a little chocolate ;-)

Back to editing. Hope everyone is happy and healthy, and not too bummed out about Duke beating UNC. It was a great game!